Not Mething Around

I'm clean, I'm finally, sober I mean, I do smoke the green, always a stoner, but I'm dropping, the lean and dropping, off the boulders, I am something, of discreet, watching, over shoulders I am tired, of the Fein, Pretending, I'm a soldier, I am watching, over me and now I am getting, older I am hating, what I see, and the world is getting colder, always testing, me man I thought I told Ya, No more Adderall's no pink, no more Xanax, bars for me oh what good they’ve, done for me ,oh what good they’ve, done for me ,no more cotton, balls or creams, I am stopping ,all the drinks, no more robot, trips on cs, no more heroine, for me no oh what good they’ve, done for me , no more heroine, for me, no more methamphetamine no more methamphetamine no more meth inside of me no more meth inside of me Everything's fine no nothing's wrong so please go ahead and move along I might tear your heart, or I might sell your soul ill step right in and take control I don't need no help I don't have no goals use the same lame rhymes from the last 6 songs I'll tell u now I think I'm pissed again even if I'm the only one at my show and show up throwing stones still with a smile I am going home, at least I had a listener Here I sit at the top of my tree alone in the ocean feeling free staring at a face that looks a lot like me I stop to think I am wondering what is my purpose what does life mean why am I scared I am spiraling into a world out of my dreams trying so hard just to breathe gasping for air I start to scream here come the ghost and the phantom that sings swirly colors and the circles that blink like traffic lights the room stops on red and we go on green if only I could share with them what I see running from skin I need personal space the dark and grim gone without a trace once again this mirror I face I'm looking at him and see the hate making a trade I'm taking his place looking within at this choice I made so much time to reflect on my mistakes I'm clean I'm finally sober I mean I always smoke the green always a stoner but I'm dropping the lean and dropping off the boulders I am something of discreet watching over shoulders I am tired of the Fein Pretending I'm a soldier I am watching over me and now I’m getting older I am hating what I see, and the world is getting colder always testing me man I thought I told Ya No more Adderall's no pink no more Xanax bars for me oh what good they’ve done for me no more cotton balls or creams I am stopping all the drinks no more robot trips on cs no more heroine for me no more me for And it begins and at beginnings end it becomes so god damn mother fucking repetitive repetitive like a sedative it's my medicine I take this hit I take it in I take it back I break it down I bring it in I bring it up and make it loud and turn around and end the sound and I find Solace in the silence of the snow only known violence on this boat that I row I am almost always lost on this road oh the time how it’s flown and I cannot find it on my own to whom do I ask to bring back my body to my soul like a secret society a substance prescribed to me something special like a subtle hiding place like needle for certain people this evil provided me significant substitute to these lethal feelings driving me I cannot find the pride inside of me when its lost its time to play hide and seek when I count down I count down from 3 rockets launch and we take to the stars headed for outer space