CAN'T AFFORD TO LOSE

So much on my mind There's so much I gotta do But right now I pause the grind Just so I can talk to you Gotta get it right Man I gotta see it through I've been at it for so long I can't afford to lose Loss is lesson Can't stay second guessin' Through depression & acceptance I confess it Aggression Leaves my breathless All this trauma in my past I leave it But it always leaves me bleedin' Pick and poke right at the scab Like I was a fuckin' heathen Don't be meanin' All the shit I say sometime But my heart is yet to see the shine After the rain Tryna maintain But I can't help but just feel so inflamed Tryna keep at it but I feel so drained I cannot move no because I am chained To all of this shit so I just fix aim So much on my mind There's so much I gotta do But right now I pause the grind Just so I can talk to you Gotta get it right Man I gotta see it through I've been at it for so long I can't afford to lose Lately overthinkin' 'Cause you know I'm always dreamin' And these fuckers always fiendin' Tryna get reactions Demons How I see 'em But I ain't no fuckin' saint Tryna paint A picture with a thousand words Even though they try to taint My image of myself their swords May pierce my armor But they can't take my will God instilled This shit I got I went through hell I know I deserve it So all these bitches I'm swervin' & I'm so sorry you're hurtin' But to frank ain't my burden The curtains So much on my mind There's so much I gotta do But right now I pause the grind Just so I can talk to you Gotta get it right Man I gotta see it through I've been at it for so long I can't afford to lose