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Sometimes I just look at the stars Whenever I'm feeling lost Wondering what is the cost Of living this life after all Cause if it's just full of pain When does the beauty begin After you're healing yourself Or after you jump off a bridge Sometimes I just look at the stars Whenever I'm feeling lost Wondering what is the cost Of living this life after all Cause if it's just full of pain When does the beauty begin After you're healing yourself Or after you jump off a bridge I want to jump off a bridge I feel like ending my life Think I'm about to give in Wondering if it's my time I don't want no medicine Cause it doesn't ever work I just want to feel okay I don't really want to hurt There's a chemical imbalance inside of my head And I don't know how I'm suppose to even it out I hate when I show my emotions to other people Cause I feel like they enjoy watching me drown Hitting the ground Tears falling down I wonder why nobody comes around Probably because I hate myself and my mind is full of doubt So full of doubt Sometimes I just look at the stars Whenever I'm feeling lost Wondering what is the cost Of living this life after all Cause if it's just full of pain When does the beauty begin After you're healing yourself Or after you jump off a bridge Sometimes I just look at the stars Whenever I'm feeling lost Wondering what is the cost Of living this life after all Cause if it's just full of pain When does the beauty begin After you're healing yourself Or after you jump off a bridge I want to heal myself I know I need some help Maybe I'm just like you Or I'm like no one else Hurt more than I bleed I hurt more than you see Cause this is just the surface And what you perceive Just like you and me Sit in my bed self loathing I have anxiety It won't leave me lonely Keeps me company For the nights I cry It's kind of like a friend I guess we're friends for life Just like you and me Sit in my bed self loathing I have anxiety It won't leave me lonely Keeps me company For the nights I cry It's kind of like a friend I guess we're friends for life Sometimes I just look at the stars Whenever I'm feeling lost Wondering what is the cost Of living this life after all Cause if it's just full of pain When does the beauty begin After you're healing yourself Or after you jump off a bridge Sometimes I just look at the stars