Gone

Feels like I'm losing myself Honestly I need somebody to help Nobody helps I'm living in hell Feel like I'm locked and trapped inside a cell I sit and I dwell I scream and I yell Hoping somebody can hear me but they all just fear me and I don't know what to do When I'm just all alone there is no one that is near me Where Do I just go Imagine living in a house that's not home I'm all alone Feeling so low Paying a thousand dollars for a phone That nobody texts I am a mess Feel more together when I am depressed I just confess I could confess But honestly I feel like I would impress All my emotions that I have been holding They're telling me I should just live in the moment But what is a moment When everyday that you get up and breathe you feel like you are just coping With something that's never ever gonna notice You'll never notice All of the feelings that I trap inside of a door that is locked and I just keep on having to close it Love Where is the love Honestly I feel like this is too much Nobody knows that I'm trapped in a rut Taking a blade and I feel myself cut Open my skin Feels like a pin Hate the fact that I have done this again I'll make amends I'll make amends Depression's defeated me I'll never win