Painful

All my life I felt like no one cared They didn't listen I remember searching through the kitchen Finding a knife and I started slitting My wrist and The bloods dripping The thoughts flowing The false moments That made me feel like I wasn't worth half a cent My minds a prison And I will never let you in it No matter how many times that you tried convincing You'll never get it I feel like quitting I needed you most when you turned your back i won't forget it I survived I don't know how But imagine waking up in a hospital with the sound Of not breathing I'm not dreaming And my demons Surround my bed while I'm screaming On the inside cause I can't even attempt to make a voice Tryna find God but he's lost inside the void of this Mock devil Who starts trouble He wants to bury me alive I saw em grab the shovel It's painful Life is hard I know cutting is tempting Cause it's the only thing relieving you from the pain you're experiencing But I promise that life will get better Put down the razorblades and write yourself a letter To your younger self Before all the trauma Before all the pain Before the heartbreak Before the trauma Before the pain Before the heartbreak My heart aches