Amber

I see our past in flashes as I recollect outside Quiet, walk out of the party to my car, start to drive Try to focus on the road, still I know, I slowly sigh Rewind to our final times, one more night, you're in my mind Do you know you often are? That you always are? Off and on conscious of it, unconsciously lost my heart To all your fractures, the fragments of me I see in you The unclean secrets and meaningless things between us two But what you mean to me isn't reciprocated I'm just a pleasant presence in a place from which you're racing And as you're running off you're leaving me without a thought And I stay with these memories of what you already forgot I know you'll be going Leaving me here holding All these frozen moments Before I was lonely You took something from me I'm still stuck here wanting With these amber moments Where I'll always have you close Someone found you before me, he was everything you wanted I never got a shot, I lost, then I started bluffing Couldn't trust revealing my meteor feelings, they'd get back to you Yet I kept trying to make an impression, get a laugh or two I think you knew but didn't want to lose my friendship And so you hoped to choke my dream, let it go with no mention I think I always saw you weren't the one, you have some demons Still I wish that you'd get what you mean to me, that you would see me 'Cause secretly I believe that you could do all that you seek You said you want to reconstruct your world, that's realistic to me From what I've seen, you've got all that you need to go succeed And I'll bear witness to your brilliance though you won't come back for me I know you'll be going Leaving me here holding All these frozen moments Before I was lonely You took something from me I'm still stuck here wanting With these amber moments Where I'll always have you close