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I never thought I wanted you this badly Nobody ever told me this could happen So quickly Nobody could have told us this would happen How could I have been so blind I forgot my glasses in the parking lot You forgot your heart outside the wendy's on first avenue You never picked it up and now the fees Are overdue I'm pulling straw after straw The shortest ones are all I draw I don't know anymore I tried to say I love you But the words don't feel the same I wish I knew The seasons change, oh I know But some things always stay the same In this hellscape of my brain I thought that I was special In your eyes Your lies Led me to believe I was your one and only I used to think that I would be So happy With you My dear A part of me still believes in magic And you One day I'll find That part of me you took If you're attached, I can't help but wonder Whether you'll come A martyr or a Magdalene You shook me dry My eyes So red and bloodied From the sight of me All alone at last it seems My dear