Still Trying

Stand back and watch me I've got this Regress I'll redress The situations out of hand And now we're sulking in sand What words in what kind of order Would make you think that I'm sober don't know how to live Without a chemical best friend Now I'm laughing at your smoking gun My reaction's I don't give a f*ck Please don't act like This is scared It's for fun I let it all consume me I let it all go You didn't want to hear this But Ill let you know I wanted you to say that I'll never leave your side But you were never there so Why am I still trying I think you're some kind of liar You said you'd help me Now I'm Crawling through my head Trouble getting out of bed My fear It eats at the surface You think you know what I am I'm a shell of who I was And your default's set to judge Now I'm laughing at my smoking gun You tell me I've run out of luck Please don't act like love is scared It's for fun