deceived

Look me in my eyes tell me you're not the devil in disguise You sat there and lied straight through your teeth Made so many promises you couldn't keep Girl don't be surprised That I act the way I do You got me staring at my shoes When you know I'd rather look at you Now I've realized that you don't even deserve a glance You got up and left and gave me no advance You fucked it all up ruined all of my plans To think after that I still gave you a chance I don't know what I was thinkin I called you things you were so far from being I look back its all of your flaws that I'm seeing I said you were perfect wish I never did Didn't know any better I'm only a kid Girl if you could see me If I told you my secrets Might that stop you from leaving Or would you still go I knew you would go Told you so many things that weren't true All in an effort to lighten your mood Tried to look past all the shit you would do You know that I always tried to see it through But it didn't work no it wasn't effective You decide to show me no affection And to think that I made the exception To think that I still gave you all my attention I wish that I knew I wish that I had a clue to why you treated me so poorly When all I did was love you I never deserved this Made me think that you were worth it When you knew you really weren't Playing mind tricks with words of reassurance Girl tell me where did you learn this You passed all your habits to me now I put my phone on dnd Just don't bother me I used to text back in a second now I text back in a week You left me on read it was 4 am I was spamming your phone cuz I thought you were dead but you weren't You were just laying in bed Tell me what made you so fucked in the head I would text you how was your day Replied in an hour and said it was great I'd text you again, asking if you ate Wouldn't get a response from you till it was late Why did I deal with you for so long The way you treated me was so wrong The fact you never loved me at all You never loved me at all Hey I was just calling to say that It had nothing to do with you You didn't change it was me I changed There was nothing you could've done to make me stay