Do Better

Uhh Gotta do better Even if I fall Gotta do better February 22nd i lost you that day Before May 2nd that was your birthday What can i say I was hurt that day I was hurt in every way You showed me a way that Couldn't be reciprocated Talked to me in a way that Only you could talk Ya you Kept it real with a limp You always had that spark And You spoke up when needed Kept it funny and always exceeded All the expectations even when cancer Tryina take you away Thru the years you was here So near so close never far You moved closer to us Just To be near to the ones you loved Ya You wasn't rich you wasn't poor Ya You poured your heart out for us all But you took the fall And I asked God why Ya I asked God could i ever see you again In my dreams so i could lean on you But instead You wanna know what i got No dreams No you That's what's hurtin the most And I'm still mad and I'm in pain Cause i lost you in my life That changed the whole fucking game Why did you have to leave my side You were my heart Ya That kept me going You beat the blood thru me My veins ran dry the day You close your eyes Dropped them last tears Took that last breath Right in front of my eyes And I'm sitting there like Damn Ya this can't be real I'm so fucking mad Ya I'm built with anger Never knew what it was like to snap 1 2 bang ya i wanna kill somebody Make them pay for the price you paid And ya laid your life on the line Took care the family with that love and care I adore you with my heart And I wish i can have them battles scares Fight it thru you with you Like rocky I'm Mohammed ouu Against the odds Adversity wants to crumble me I'm trying to stay the humble me The loving caring me that Gave the world All my fucking energy Just like you did Grandma ma And we missing you like crazy Even when I'm too lazy to come to the stone I still remember them days i was in college And i come home to see you first Now years later i remember Putting you in that hearse Cursing up a storm in my head like God why Why now why when you know ima break Why when you know ima fall Cause you was the one to always Break my fall that's why i always called This was my depression I may need intervention Ever since i lost you Never saw you again I kept talking to death Jump of this bridge And I'm Stabbin myself in my ribs Bout to Blow my brains out in the crib Sometimes i just wanna live only by you And I'm getting better with the shit I lost my other half of my life I wanted to unleash a full clip So i dropped the gun Grab my pen Let my words change the world Ima do better for you RIP grandma Love you