Holding On

Uhh Uhh I ain't holding on Oh my God, I done found my way Found my path , okay Uhh And I'm tired of hold on to all the Lies, all the grief, all the cursing All the sex, thrown that to the side Given my life all to God Oh ya, he forgives everybody Did him dirty and he still forgave me Denied him for than 3 times Every single day, daily I done thank God He done blessed me And The truth is Lost my grandma about a year ago Ima let it go She gunna be ok Now she with God Let me take a take a step back okay Juggin' on the beat Juggin' on the beat ya Cause I'm Filled with joy Cause this is my recovery Heaven knows I cant break it Heaven knows how to keep it real How to keep it real We all talkin' bout black lives matter But all lives matter Black people taken black lives Ya and We all dying, stay close to God Cause all lives matter Did y'all know A man needs a woman And A woman needs a man Cause she was made from his rib So we all need each other Please please please please please just Stop with the ignorance please Uh Yeah look at me now Just holding a frown up side down People have tendency To ask me why I look down but lately I've been thinking of you Missing you daily oh God save me Cause the depression kicking in Oh don't run through my mind But it is for miles and I'm running out of time cause you left my side to be with God I tried to make it work I try not to show My hurt But every time I see you I feel this sense that I'm getting depressed Can't seem to come to senses Everyone telling move on or hold on You gonna be okay there's always that other day I'll find you another day but I don't wanna do it I don't wanna i don't wanna i don't wanna do it I don't wanna wait i don't wanna waste Time to clean my slate gotta have my faith In God himself Start holding onto Jesus Gotta have my faith in God himself In God have my faith Start holding onto God In God himself gotta starting holding on God To Jesus no matter what Uh ya look mama No don't start with the drama Don't start with the drama I'm just trying to make it I'm just trying to make it I ain't gonna fake it I ain't gonna fake it I see something that i want Bet imma take it Lord save me help me Cause I'm suffering without her I need her love and I'm lost without her I need her touch I'm cold without it I'm needed her voice My head it too torn With the thorns in my head Everyone shooting me down Even though I'm trying to hold it strong Cause my heart is cold And I was in a bad place Didnt wanna share my story with anybody Walked around all depressed Couldn't seem to rest Didnt even wanna live I was at bed rest But thank the Lord He done helped me take the right steps, right way Now im here like praise him, praise him Having my hands up for him Thank you lord I ain't holding on I ain't holding on I ain't holding on