September 5th

F*ck it I'm in my lab late at night fighting back these tears Haven't spoken to my real dad in years Just to make it clear I was reaching out for months Never answered when I called never gave me a response I ain't gone even front you don't know my life theme I was sick almost died from that Covid-19 Temperature 107 had me shaking in my bed If it wasn't for my wife I'd probably be dead Gave me vitamins and meds laying by me scared I was fading out can't even remember what was said Momma calling me on video I tried to play it cool Just think it all happened when our kids went to school They got infected first but it did me the worst Family of five we survived but it hurt Reflecting on it all cause it could've went left Dealing with the odds and the cards I was dealt got damn See I don't think yall feel me ya know 14 days of ya know I was going thru this ordeal Watching my wife run from room to room in our house Making sure our children good making sure I'm good ya know I could barely keep my eyes open at times I was fucked up So I gotta shout my woman out ya know For being there She a real one Lucky she had no symptoms nursed us back to health Kids turned out fine I was certain it was death That was creeping on my steps every night was out of breath It was hard to breathe can't believe the way it kept Trying to break me down felt I'm bout to drown In just four days had a nigga losing pounds Shout out to Charles shout out to Brian Only two of my sisters called and checked on me out of nine I know this shit is crazy my brothers M.I.A. But might say I'm acting shady Knowing I'm the oldest treat me like the coldest But I ain't holding grudges I just never told it The story has unfolded I record it then upload it Dealing with depression felt I almost exploded Was holding it in until I grabbed this black pen Cutting ties from some fam and them so called friends Once again September 5th 2021 I mean I got to see who really there for me ya know I'm saying My family gotta be the most disconnected dysfunctional We only get together at funerals and shit ya know I ain't saying I'm innocent But we gotta check on each other more Before it's too late