i'm gonna thank myself later for leaving you

Some day I'm going to thank myself for leaving you But right now I'm hurting from the side effects I don't want to break down Suppressing emotions I'm feeling iced out as the days go by Lights go down And I go home I feel so alone Alone Do I just miss having someone to hold me I wake up and you're not there anymore I'm just so scared I had a dream that you were still here but ooh No baby you weren't here for me Oh You weren't here for me So why the hell do I still miss you I guess I just miss having someone to hold me Some days I feel like I'm ready Can I talk to someone new already But my heart still feels so big and heavy Told you I won't care seeing you with someone new and pretty Know sometimes I can get so petty It's the human me can't say I'm perfect I know that we're still young and learning Can I just admit that I'm still hurting It's the self love piece that I'm still working Turn my phone back on Just to stop Myself from lurking on you I know that right now Things may not make sense Emotions comprehending Going round and round and round Least I know that I can breathe now Count on me hold myself down You'll miss me When I'm gone When I'm gone When I'm gone When I'm gone Do I just miss having someone to hold me I know you're going to miss me I wake up and you're not there anymore Oh babe I'm just so scared I had a dream that you were still here but ooh No No baby you weren't here for me No you ain't No you ain't Oh You weren't here for me I wish you were Wish you were So why the hell do I still miss you I guess I just miss having someone to hold me Someone to hold me