Wait 4 Me

I never speak about these silent thoughts I hope my momma knows that she my rock Tough love but I'm grateful cause she taught a lot I'll run through brick walls just so she can see me up on top There's times I wish that someone sat with me and talked No one showed me empathy when I was lost They treat you worse at yo worst and that's why I don't talk a lot I never had a real friend and that shit really ain't my fault I wish there was a grave where I could visit my pop Sit and talk to him cause god knows he's my default Rather talk to the wind than have my problems on the spot It broke my heart when they hit em with the shots It went BOP BOP BOP With a glock, glock, glock They killed my pop And my brother soul They ain't even find a body searching for it took em long I'm foreign so you prolly can't relate this ain't common But then I saw him in my dreams, he said I'm strong He said to always stay real and make sure that I write my wrongs So I write em' in my songs I wish he coulda seen his lil girl go n' get it on I wish that I had known this cold world from the dawn And I know that I'm different cause I felt I ain't belong That hoe shit take me from my money, can't distract me with a thong That party every weekend shit too, I ain't really fond of I never speak about these silent thoughts The ones that stay up in my head The ones that have me up at 4 AM when I'm bed The words that have me bent, but it ain't nothin' to be said They don't know bout' what I went through as a kid They don't know bout' how the jungle is Y'all just wanna complain instead But tell me if you got a call yo loved one wound up dead.. Would u still show them disrespect? Aye so to my pop I hope you'll wait for me I don't know if you in hell or in heaven but hold them gates for me If I was crying tears of blood yo would you stay for me? Joking words of suicide but they was real Need you to pray for me Been broke a lot so let me know if you gon' stay wit me And to my brother will you wait for me I know that life got you messed up but please just stay with me Yeah when you out make sure you up and that you make millis I don't wanna see you gone cause yo death might kill me I know we got our problems but you blood so let's get iced filthy And for my nasty 19th let's go fly it out to Philly I ask god how many more is you gon' take from me? And to the system don't pretend like you don't hear me I ain't here to be selfish I'm here to change every city It been too long that you been oppressing my people, time is plenty So we gon' start change from the bottom, work it up to the chimney This shit was built to kill us, so we gon' burn it down rebuild it I look for character in people so all that fake shit you can keep it All my old friends did me dirty but they would never admit it If i had a dollar every time I caught y'all slippin' I'd be rich And if I had a new fruit every time I talked to snakes I'd have a mix Real recognize real So I ain't falling for no tricks I already took too many hits They ain't wanna see me up but now I live So tell me would you wait for me Cause I'll wait for you Would you stay for me Cause I'll stay for you