Rain Clouds

I got rain clouds dropping teardrops on me (on me) In my brain, it's a typhoon, eyes are stormy (stormy) Not the same as before, that's what haunts me (haunts me) Feeling plain in my Dior, guess I'm falling Hurricane, tend to ignore pain I'm dodging (dodging) Medicate, worse than before, jaw keep locking (locking) Kurt Cobain, aim at me for comfort thoughts I'm struggling with the storms, yeah, it's pouring I don't mind If I lose life (nah) I ain't stressing time or how I die (nah) That's a good thing, right (nah) At least I tried I can't hide These feelings, might Just say what's going through my mind It's suicide Don't act surprised I'm crawling through days Seeing no change Nothing to get all these thoughts out my brain (brain) Mama told me "please have a lil faith" Cause mama can tell that I'm fading away (way) Don't even pick at the food on my plate Cause the truth is I feel like the use is a waste (waste) Maybe cause I'll die tomorrow, I pray Or maybe cause I don't deserved to be saved Laying awake My mental state Killing me slow And I wish it would break (slow break) Maybe I'd build up the courage to pick up a Glock and just end it A shot to the brain (brain) Not trying say That I hate pain Really, it's all I can feel nowadays (nowadays) Might just go back to the pills nowadays Asking me "how do you feel?", I ain't great I got rain clouds dropping teardrops on me (on me) In my brain, it's a typhoon, eyes are stormy (stormy) Not the same as before, that's what haunts me (haunts me) Feeling plain in my Dior, guess I'm falling Hurricane, tend to ignore pain I'm dodging (dodging) Medicate, worse than before, jaw keep locking (locking) Kurt Cobain, aim at me for comfort thoughts (I, I) I'm struggling with the storms, yeah, it's pouring Did you really think That I'd bounce back (ha) Be a brand new me Homie please (ha) I'm calling cap I'm suffering (oh, no) Now I don't mean To be venting Up on the track (oh, no) But bruh, f*ck that I've held it back Now let me speak But f*ck it, they don't care (don't care) Don't hear (don't hear) When you beg and plead They give you the stone stare (stone stare) Cold stare (cold stare) When you speak honestly Like you shouldn't go there (go there) Bro there's (bro there's) Literally hundreds of me out crying them lone tears (lone tears) No ears (no ears) Listen to them or to me But they call you weak How you gon speak If you ain't been through the same shit as me (no) If you ain't dealt with the same pain as me (no) Shit as a kid that done change how you think (no) But blame it on me Aim it on me Act like I wanted to be only three With demons all on me, and scenes of the fiends With trauma, I've carried for like seventeen I got rain clouds dropping teardrops on me (on me) In my brain, it's a typhoon, eyes are stormy (stormy) Not the same as before, that's what haunts me (haunts me) Feeling plain in my Dior, guess I'm falling Hurricane, tend to ignore pain I'm dodging (dodging) Medicate, worse than before, jaw keep locking (locking) Kurt Cobain, aim at me for comfort thoughts I'm struggling with the storms, yeah, it's pouring Yeah, it's pouring