Adderall Sunrise

[Intro] Pills on my nightstand, starin' at the ceiling Twenty-seven years of chaos, now I'm finally healing Doctor said my brain's just wired differently Now these orange bottles got me thinking 'bout my artistry [Verse 1] Used to chase the static in my head like it was gold Now they tell me that's the story that was never told ADHD got me bouncing off these studio walls But the meds might kill the fire, that's what got me scared to fall Can't focus on these verses when my mind's a hurricane But what if all this mess is what keeps me sane? Label wants consistency, I give 'em scattered thoughts Raw emotion painted red, that's all I ever got [Chorus] Am I better broken? (What's the cost?) Trading chaos for control, yeah, but something's lost Mind's too quiet now (Too fucking clear) What if all my demons were just keeping me sincere? [Verse 2] First day on Adderall, my hands stopped shaking Brain finally quiet but my soul was aching Wrote sixteen bars straight, no hesitation But the words felt empty, clinical creation They say I'm fixing something that was never broke Just conforming to their system 'til my spirit's choked But these thoughts are clearer now, can't lie about that Still feel like I'm cheating when I write these raps [Bridge] F*ck their normal, f*ck their standard way But I'm tired of fighting with my DNA Maybe peace of mind ain't such a heavy price Trading chaos for a chance at normal life [Chorus] Am I better broken? (What's the cost?) Trading chaos for control, yeah, but something's lost Mind's too quiet now (Too fucking clear) What if all my demons were just keeping me sincere? [Outro] Orange bottles line my path to salvation Or maybe just another form of medication Either way I'm changing, can't go back now Learning how to live with both the silence and the sound