Unspoken Truths

Wage okay I got it look everything I Lost has been replaced with better Every year the same cycle was hard To keep my head up I grew up in a Broken home we neglected our Feelings walk pass my family like a Room mate no love from my siblings Remember crying in my room staring At the ceiling it was hard for me to Identify what I was feeling Connecting within using my pen this For a deeper purpose trial and error Taught me that going through that Pain was worth it God use me in any way I'm here For Your service embracing my pain Nobody's perfect I'm no longer Nervous I'm soul searching this life Here ain't gotta purchase them Retrogrades come around emotions Start to surface Trying to hide from my feelings like It's cursive trying to curve it demons Be lurking still got addictions from My sister I'm still distant instead of Reaching out a grudge grew and I got The nerve to talk about people and How they living I need healing I ain't talking about the kind that Need prescriptions I'm praying for Support when I'm down for more Uplifting how can I hold on to the Years my dad was missing I ain't no Better I don't check on my sister Children Things a never change if I ain't trying To make a difference I got to take Action and not just dwell In my Feelings I'm missing tone dearly we Know it's rich transitions, faith Overcomes fear god been revealing I'm just Healing From all of the wounds I should've Patched up was sleeping in the trap House I had rashes from the mattress Inhaling crystals I was trying to get Her to knock it cause we all got our Own ways of crying when no one's Watching My environment was toxic I felt sorry For them toddlers it's way too many Kids being raised with no fathers Forced to be in they masculine and Overcome the imbalance was room Mating with prostitutes and drug Addicts Using survival tactics lighting Candles with matches how I'm pose To vent and ashamed of my Circumstances how I'm pose to grow With no courage to chase my passions I'm lookin back goin forward out of That madness And I fought to control my reactions I Needed balance and discipline I'm Balancing my masculine and Feminine went within just to feel it Again that took some time this Physical is fake I embrace it because It's mine This physical is fake I embrace it Because it's mine