Soliloquies (feat. Halberd)

Stuck in my head lounge music in the background I look around at all the people I have let down So many faces in the pages of my storybook Half of them still have faith in me The other half has given up And why wouldn't they I am a letdown people who love me Slowly watch me try to find a noun Instead of find a job or Enough credits to graduate I can barely finish what is on my Fucking dinner plate I sit in my dirty room writing soliloquies About the breeze to a warm autumn tune Try to forget all the problems i've caused If I think about them too much I feel so lost And why is life so anethetical My depression and anxiety they make me skeptical How can anyone be content with the thought of wishing If I can't make myself happy,then what's the point of living I just want to be the person they say I can be But the longer I look in the mirror The more tears run down my cheeks To i'll continue to write in this notebook that I keep But I know down deep inside my sadness plays on repeat