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I know that she don't give a damn about me I ask myself allot like if she's better off without me I need to get some time to think and hope that this don't drown me I need to get my mind off all the shit that goes around me I need to think a bit before I go and leave this place I need a bit of time to say goodbye and see your face I need to drive around to clear my mind And walk a mile to think about Why I should go and leave without a fucking trace But then again, I get attached to a whole lot of bullshit Fifty-fifty on this shit, losing energy on this I'm not thinking clear What is there to help me get this fixed? I might ask a couple questions Can you answer them real quick? Am I worth it? Should I stay? Should I work on me for days? Should I make time and some space? Well too late, I left already I wish I didn't leave though Man I regret it all Wish I could turn it back, but Now look I'm fucking tired I'm out of air, I got no oxygen The pressure getting harder Wish I could see you again I wish I could change many things Like when you pulled all of my strings I'm feeling like I'm passing out again I'm running out of breath like every second I can't make any decision right I always wonder if I made the other choice would things be better? Would I get in a place where I won't have to write a letter? I need to start talking 'bout my feelings more Everything scrambled I need to try and open doors Everything tangled I need to try and clear my mind and try again And walk around the situations that I'm dealing with I'm not feeling this I don't wanna deal with this I don't know how I should keep on going But I'm healing -ish I might need to think 'bout what I'll do now Can you help me find my way and get me out?