Panic Attack

If I'm two minutes late then I have a panic attack So I'm eternally early I wait by myself in the back I look around, thinkin' everyone hates me But when I'm alone, oh who's gonna save me It's too hard to focus so I dissociate Count all the calories left on my plate And I wait til the minute when it's time to leave Then I can finally breathe Who do you love when everyone's hurt you Where do you go when you don't belong It's too hard to cry so I keep it inside I smile and play along And I sing my little songs Lalalalala Even my therapist cried when they heard my trauma My moon and rising hate silence so I create drama Don't think I deserve all the great things I've had No matter how good it is I still feel bad In bed for 12 hours and wake before dawn somersaults in my mind thinking what could go wrong And I wait til the minute when it's time to leave Then I can finally breathe Who do you love when everyone's hurt you Where do you go when you don't belong It's too hard to cry so I keep it inside I smile and play along And I sing my little songs Lalalalala If I'm two minutes late then I have a panic attack Who do you love when everyone's hurt you Where do you go when you don't belong It's too hard to cry so I keep it inside I smile and play along And I sing my little songs Lalalalala