I'm Helpless

As I look at the moon I start to ask why people leave so soon Way they treat me, you would think I'm immune Don't know how to express so I put in tunes, uh Feel fake like cartoons They can see all of my wounds I was young, feeling down They would say "it's just a mood" Wasn't my fault I got in feuds Ain't wanna fit in wit those dudes And now I'm stuck up in my room "My thoughts are right" what I assume And now im walking to my doom 21 and in a tomb Walk up to me, they gon' BOOM Once they take my life, my dream I never will resume I'll never resume my conquest Y'all treat death like a contest You mad, don't act like you not pressed I'm alive so I feel that I'm beyond blessed When I'm angry, I don't think that I respond best Thoughts is blowing up my head like it's a bomb fest There's a lot of fuckin' trauma I ain't process There's a lot of fuckin' things that I ain't process, yeah But it's not ok I feel lost, I can't locate They tell me "get sober" and I tell them "ain't no fuckin' way" I don't wan' deal with no pain On xans, movin' at slow pace If there ain't no pay, no gain I got problems, please don't play I been high for the whole day Try to save me, you're so late When I die, there'll be no date I'll leave no trace, I'll leave no name I feel hopeless, got no faith Got no sun, but got no rain All my words don't hold no weight They tell me to change, so vague My heart cold on a cold day Ain't got help, I ain't got aid He talk shit, I leave him faceless Bet he'll never wanna say shit Yes, I keep a gun, just case it You ain't really 'bout it, face it If you got a goal, embrace it If you got problems, erase 'em Love my bros, I can't replace 'em They try testing, we gon' blaze 'em All the legends, I'm gon' praise 'em All the standards, they done raised 'em Now I gotta fuckin' step up I feel sick, I need a check up If you talking shit, you know I'm aimin', hit you from the neck up (BOW) I don't wanna get up The way that I been feelin', I don't think I can develop The way the world is movin', I just think it's all a set up The way my head was racing, I just wish that I had kept up I wish I could find a way to keep my fucking head up Wish I wasn't angry but I'm always fucking fed up Wish that I could do things right but I just always mess up But I gotta keep on movin', I can't ever let up I can't let up, man I gotta do this shit for my family, bro I feel like I've been nothin' but a disappointment my whole entire fuckin' life, bro Like, if nothin' else, I gotta do the music I can't lose this shit, bro I'm gon' make it, y'all gon' see I wasn't talking' crazy, bro, I was speaking the truth into existence, and y'all gonna see That I'm gone