Fantail

I don't know what I've been doing in so much as I've been living I guess things are getting written but that's it as far as spitting Still holding true to my position but, I'd be lying if I said my grip has ever been as tight, at times I feel it slipping Can't say I'm l working daily on my mission, but I get a couple visions Every now and then that sort of feel like premonitions Then my intuition fires up, again, I rarely ever listen Tracing back my steps, wonder where the fear came The catalyst that triggers when the tears rain Uncovering my story, what a mad tale Wonder why it matters, eating burrata and salad at the Fantail Big smiles, thank the waiters for their service Don't tell em bout my mouth that's started tingling, I might just be allergic But my mother used to tell me I was overthinking always being sensitive And my dad would tell me just to keep on fighting through the pain So believe me when I say it's only in my recent struggles that I've started saying anything Some random bars while I'm waiting for the laundrette Can't afford a dryer but no harm in doing more steps Soaking in the sunshine, wonder who I see as core friends And who I'm holding onto for the years that we've been backing, the ones who seem inactive The ones who when I see I do approach the scene with caution Again, big smiles, they don't see the deep reaction Cuz when I heard here we go again from a very old friend when I was talking about my race that's when i'd seen the damage The child in me was talking And said that we've been through this long enough So f*ck off with this tryna keep the peace, I've had it I'm grabbing every stone that represents my every bone to pick and holding it like man was Thanos cuz I'm getting close to lit and snapping cuz I feel like things were never how they should be and we really need the balance Reinstated, but I'm walking, on this fine line where any time I'm mad at all They so easily can label me as radical When my not so coloured counterparts can come and do the same and hey Maybe we should, just let them come and save the day