No Fly Zone

Everybody's hopping out on holidays I never used to care now I feel a bit behind But why? Lord knows Something deeper going on far as that thought goes Got friends out in Dam, Spain and Bordeux And the weather's hella piff right here Out and about, got the right idea But I'm bored though Staying silent but inside I got a sore throat Yeah, Instagram shooting bullets that I fought bro But summer time got me in the line of fire Couple strays, yeah I caught those And to be real, my BeReal keeps coming at the wrong time Nah never ready for that reveal Enjoy the sun, enjoy the park and the people Let's be real, I really mean the females Ha, might not be seeing what I see still It's calm, nah, only saying this to be real Won't catch me in the sky anytime soon Apologies if that sounds nothing like you We're not on the same path, so insightful Don't you worry 'bout me, I'll be fine dude Sorry bout the texts that I might ghost We're two different people, oh, mind blown? Screwing up your face like, why though? One day, but for now, no fly zone I used to go on planes all the time fam Then something switched like, something's gone amiss I'm Scared all of a sudden and I'm shook at any little shake No matter how light, damn I can see it looking back The start of my life shifting to a newer flight plan Mind put on ice, serenity trapped Happy chemicals lack, squeeze like my brain's in a tight band Now I'm slowly plucking up the courage Pandemic got me out the loop so What can I do? Tryna cover up my worries Apologies to my ex girl, I only wanted road trips Wasn't ready for the sky, so she flew out while I was home left On my own and she was on a motive She had a tough year, she didn't deserve that Hurt me to think I was adding to her own stress Won't catch me in the sky anytime soon Apologies if that sounds nothing like you We're not on the same path, so insightful Don't you worry 'bout me, I'll be fine dude Sorry bout the texts that I might ghost We're two different people, oh, mind blown? Screwing up your face like, why though? One day, but for now, no fly zone I'm feening just to dive into a pool again But the summer's nearly over like that interlude on Views I guess I gotta wait, until the sun is back around Jumping on a plane And there's no contest, so why am I comparing? No one knows the context, the why behind the onset Of why I kinda fear it, how I used to love it But now when we talk of going travelling inside I'm getting panicky I'm trying hard to show you I'm excited but I'm blinded by the fantasy Of feeling trapped, even showing signs that I feel are quite embarrassing So excuse me for a sec, I need time for some planning and emotional management I went to Bali and I hardly cared that I was flying more than half a day Proud of me for feeling more annoyed and not in fear when the plane shook Now I'm heavy out of practice so be patient, I'll be back again Won't catch me in the sky anytime soon Apologies if that sounds nothing like you We're not on the same path, so insightful Don't you worry 'bout me, I'll be fine dude Sorry bout the texts that I might ghost We're two different people, oh, mind blown? Screwing up your face like, why though? One day, but for now, no fly zone