Return by Death

I want it to change but everyday you showing me you staying the same I know I made a lot of mistakes fixing the leaks with a lot of tape F*ck my apologies you scream and shout Throwing objects all across the house get even louder when I tell you simmer down I say that I love you You say that I'm lucky got plenty dudes on bumble buzzing Always knew you was up to something tryna replace me Well guess what you aint the only one who hates me Cant look in the mirror i cant even face me You know how easy it is to break me Got nobody around to save me Everyday Is the fucking same You telling me You wanna run away You think I wanna stay I need a break from myself Cause dealing with me is fucking hell Everyday Is the fucking same You telling me You wanna run away You think I wanna stay I need a break from myself Cause dealing with me is fucking hell The thoughts in my mind running a mile a minutes Beating me down like the Popeye off of the spinach Tired of pretending that I'm not empty lie to my friends my family too Like I don't want to swan dive off of the roof Vodka with the cranberry juice roll up a blunt I'm off of the boof The hole sin my shoes from pacing around The darkest of clouds hangs over my head Thought id find relief inside of your sheets Now cats got your tongue cause you don't want to speak Blame it all on me when we got some beef Thought we was perfect so why is we hurting Guess I'm not worthy if i cant love my self The black in my mind is hotter than hell You put up more walls while I'm tryna scale Lay in my bed without any rest Replaying my flaws over and over inside of my head Begging for death but I cant pull the trigger All my demons snicker as I burn more bridges And watch more clouds form in the distance Everyday Is the fucking same You telling me You wanna run away You think I wanna stay I need a break from myself Cause dealing with me is fucking hell Everyday Is the fucking same You telling me You wanna run away You think I wanna stay I need a break from myself Cause dealing with me is fucking hell