Closed Off

Am I ok? Cause somedays I just feel closed off Lost in my thoughts Lost in my ways I'd rather just hold off Issues and problems Man I should solve em It takes the load off But then I think Right back to myself I'd rather just doze off Lately life has been showing me things That I question on what it would bring? Is it love or the finer things? Emotions slowly pulling All my strings I've been stuck in my mind for a minute Slowly getting pushed to all my limits Trust issues taking over me Heart beats but I just can't feel it Am I numb? Or just numb to the pain? Shit hurts when you've been feeling this way Smile a lot but I hurt every day Wishing people never changed up their ways My memories stuck on endless replay Often thinking bout them better days Just know that my love was real So when it comes to me I never been a fake Am I ok? Cause somedays I just feel closed off Lost in my thoughts Lost in my ways I'd rather just hold off Issues and problems Man I should solve em It takes the load off But then I think Right back to myself I'd rather just doze off I lost people that were close to me Cause this life thing comes with a fee Not sorry if you know I fell back I have a good habit of distancing Myself from people who show me fake and the fraudulent activity Man my mind is at a constant race I know it's war Cause it's me versus me I don't throw the blame at other people I gotta just take accountability Even when people wanna take advantage I gotta show them that they're dead to me So it's R.I.P to that history on what that person truly meant to me I'm on this road all by myself So there's no need for the apologies Am I ok? Cause somedays I just feel closed off Lost in my thoughts Lost in my ways I'd rather just hold off Issues and problems Man I should solve em It takes the load off But then I think Right back to myself I'd rather just doze off