what do I do now ?

They say be patient and take it easy I swear I'm trying girl, please believe me Been blinded tryna find types of love that you see on TV Misguided by the way that I feel every time you leave me Breaking the pattern from how we grow up Anytime you need me know I show up And give you all I got cause I want your love Cause anybody ever in my spot would never show love Haven't seen you in a minute wonder what you up to now Now every single day I try my best to fake a smile Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me In any situation know I'd never let you down You know that I'll be right there to pick you off the ground Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me So what do I do now Somehow I'm stuck her all alone baby You said you love me, you were wrong baby So what do I do now Feel like I'm losing all control baby Had conversations with your ghost Now I ain't mean to hurt your feelings I know I could do the most But you know there ain't no one like me that f*ck with you the most You don't even like new friends, you shut them out they can't get close We were wrong place in the wrong time baby that's just how it goes Haven't seen you in a minute wonder what you up to now Now every single day I try my best to fake a smile Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me In any situation know I'd never let you down You know that I'll be right there to pick you off the ground Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me So what do I do now I'm yelling what do I do now Everyone seems happy when they're blending the crowd If I ask what are we now I know you ain't gonna tell me that you need me You'd spend your life pretending that you couldn't see me And if you could go back in time you would delete me But still how could I let you go I'll be waiting for a long time cause I know that we ain't finished And I never wish you bad cause I always hope you're winning Still remember what you said and how you felt in the beginning All good things have to end, can't lie I just don't get it Haven't seen you in a minute wonder what you up to now Now every single day I try my best to fake a smile Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me In any situation know I'd never let you down You know that I'll be right there to pick you off the ground Cause I need you near me God I know you hear me So what do I do now