showering with spiders

Hey father, I've been meaning to call you I'm sorry I'm not happy often And the days have felt so heavy But you told me, "Just come back home when you're ready" Well, I'm ready No wiser I've been showering with spiders It's silent I've been so unguarded Oh, the fire has long extinguished And you're tired of watching all your fears Burned out Oh, what a way to say goodbye No pain when you're dying on the inside Gold flames burn brightest in the moonlight Old names still fade when you hold on Still wanna die young, so I smoke some In the city, don't sleep with the lights out Running too fast, I've been dying to get out now So dazed, never felt so safe, no So amazed, never wanna wake up No pain when you're dying on the inside Gold flames burn brightest in the moonlight Old names still fade when you hold on Still wanna die young, so I smoke some In the city, don't sleep with the lights out Running too fast, I've been dying to get out now So dazed, never felt so safe, no So amazed, never wanna wake