Remedy

Yeah This is my remedy These are my memories You are a memory to me Took me so long to believe That I could even be Somebody living free I couldn't love myself you see Maybe too much of the greed Maybe too much of the lean Maybe too much of defeat I'm tryna leave legacies though And that's on my mama and future kids I put it all on the line for this shit Turning myself into greatest who did it I only speak it if I really did it Never look back at the start I'm winning Never look back at the start I finished Cut 'em all off I got them in they feelings Back at the start of the year Vulnerable heart and full of fear Tryna heal scars that couldn't be healed If I took all my problems to court, I know that I'd fail the appeal Maybe this deal is a steal Or maybe it's not Shit just started getting real When I had to stop popping them pills And popping the seals Couldn't even stomach a meal Throwing up blood Bleeding all outta my heart And bleeding right outta my ears Who would've thought I would've made it through hell And still be alive to tell It was all deadly serious My mind was still very delirious Me and the plug was still dealing Their spirit lives in me My Granny know I miss her Least you got Grampa witchu' And Raymond too that's triple I got a promise that I made And there are odds that may outweigh But I'm strong I'll make a way This is my remedy These are my memories You are a memory to me Took me so long to believe That I could even be Somebody living free I couldn't love myself you see Maybe too much of the greed Maybe too much of the lean Maybe too much of defeat I'm tryna leave legacies though And that's on my mama and future kids I put it all on the line for this shit Turning myself into greatest who did it I only speak it if I really did it Never look back at the start I'm winning Never look back at the start I finished Cut 'em all off I got them in they feelings Now my life is looking up And I feel as if I'm blessed I thank God that I found music Let's me get shit off of my chest It's a way for me to vent A way to gain myself respect Broken mirrors still reflect What's up next For me Been rewiring my brain Taking baby steps, but memories escape It's prolly for the best if I throw 'em down the drain Put the painkillers away That's what baby say Whatever it is you gotta say about me I know that I got haters, it's okay I'll let 'em speak Is it cause my shit too deep Is it cause I'm tryna be Myself Was blind but now I see This is my remedy These are my memories You are a memory to me Took me so long to believe That I could even be Somebody living free I couldn't love myself you see Maybe too much of the greed Maybe too much of the lean Maybe too much of defeat I'm tryna leave legacies though And that's on my mama and future kids I put it all on the line for this shit Turning myself into greatest who did it I only speak it if I really did it Never look back at the start I'm winning Never look back at the start I finished Cut 'em all off I got them in they feelings