Paralysis

In the middle of the night I'm terrified with who I am I wake up losing sight of time My minds not right, lost in this trance I dance by myself as I cry Submerge my thoughts when I'm with friends I can't explain this feeling I can't lose sight of future plans Anxiety clawing at me I'm not as happy as I seem I badly want to flee this galaxy to become More than the reason that you feel so free I can't stand myself so I sit when I'm around These people who will talk slow and gossip through the town The stars beautifully aligned Yet my entity feels down I'm tired of this feeling that I carry with me now Loneliness my enemy Emotions they manifest When I sit inside my room I smoke and count up my sins Regrets beyond bitter cold They whisper when in the wind I sense my time is so soon But time Is an illusion In the middle of the night I'm terrified with who I am I wake up losing sight of time My minds not right, lost in this trance I dance by myself as I cry Submerge my thoughts when I'm with friends I can't explain this feeling I Can't lose sight of future plans In the In the middle of the night Paralysis demons hold on My fear slowly shutting me down I try and yell but not for long My mind roams free whenever I Am dreaming of becoming one With myself before I must die And fade away as I recall My memories that make me sad My sense of purpose feels so lost No motivation for the last Few months that I've been feeling small I shrug it off when I'm with friends I always tell them nothings wrong When I could use a companion Though I'd rather be alone In the middle of the night I'm terrified with who I am I wake up losing sight of time My minds not right, lost in this trance I dance by myself as I cry Submerge my thoughts when I'm with friends I can't explain this feeling I Can't lose sight of future plans I can't lose sight of future plans I can't lose sight of future plans I can't lose sight of future plans I cant lose sight of future plans In the middle of the night I'm terrified with who I am I wake up losing sight of time My minds not right, lost in this trance I dance by myself as I cry Submerge my thoughts when I'm with friends I can't explain this feeling I Can't lose sight of future plans I can't lose sight of future plans No no no no no