What I have become

I try (I try) But sometimes I just make no sense For what I am (I am) Looking back All you have changed But I just got the scars (Scars) The war i'm still fighting In my mind rhyming and tryin' To make some Sence (I try) Hence I try To stay (But it's pulling me away) And every word twists inside Just like a knife I left myself (So I) I can't see The life infront of me Just What I feel Deep down inside It's in my mind (It's in my mind) And I no longer try To stay alive Afloat above the water Afloat above the other I drown (Drown) What have I become (Become) BECOME! When I start seeing clear Will then I hear The lost and quiet too Cause they're still in my room Believe me I would say it now But I should stay it out They feed me pills So I have no wills (Suffocate) I keep it all with me This way you will never see The damage that I feel And will never heal (So I) I can't see The life infront of me Just What I feel Deep down inside It's in my mind (It's in my mind) And I no longer try To stay alive Afloat above the water Afloat above the other I drown (Drown) What have I become (Become) BECOME! Its suffocating now To try thinking about All this advances Silence is not the answer I step out of me now And suffocate the crowd But when I get to a higher ground It just drags me back down Here I sit and suffocate In my worthless misery I can't seem to be free Because what my mirror tells me Is not what I see I try to hold onto the answers That eats away like a cancer (So I) I can't see The life infront of me Just What I feel Deep down inside It's in my mind (It's in my mind) And I no longer try To stay alive Afloat above the water Afloat above the other I drown (Drown) That is what have I become (Become) BECOME! I try to understand myself but I'm just in my way And the memories have become the me That I blame That I hate (So I) Just like murky water I lost myself for ya Beaten all down That is what have I become