coke in a wine glass

Coke in a wine glass beside my bed Racing impure thoughts can't get out of my head And I think I was cursed as a child Was drowning before I hit the first mile And that's what you say When things don't go your way Always placing the blame But I can't seem to make anyone stay But I I can't hide Not anymore They're looking from the outside I won't deny All the pride See through my disguise Oh give me something to believe in Cause you've got the kind of sin only the innocence of a child could forgive All because my mother's mother told a bad story Now I carry the shame Of all the women before me Passed down In my bloodline Learned how to live on fault lines So unsure Have I made it worse? Feeding the demons placed under my skin Oh Oh Oh I stoped breathing Can you feel it? Not anymore Anymore anymore But I I can't hide Not anymore They're looking from the outside I won't deny All the pride See through my disguise Coke in a wine glass beside my bed Racing impure thoughts can't get out of my head