Deep Valor

If in fact I breathe on the flower petals and weeds They'll surely contract an unforgettable disease And when I spew phlegm out from my throat into the earth I hope a new stem sprouts an oath that has worth And I will repent for abandoning the words I've always meant But I did not deserve, I did not earn The power to keep I may never learn to pray but someday I will learn to strum the nerves Of a valor so deep If there is an entrance to oblivion Forget me but may my memories be forgiven And if I see you gawking down at the world through your telescope I hope you see me, I'll be walking through Hell with an envelope And there, I will repent for abandoning the words I've always meant But I did not deserve, I did not earn The power to keep I may never learn to pray but someday I will burn, burn with a valor A valor so deep I have often wondered The ascension, will it come soon I will wait where it's warmer Where I can dream and feel everything Maybe I'll be waiting Under the gold-drenched moon