the way down

I drank some water yesterday I took a shower Went on a walk I saw the sun for one whole hour I changed my clothes And brushed my hair Put on some lotion But anymore and life starts moving in slow motion They say it's a climb To the finish line But I think it feels more like The hardest part Is coming down Knowing that eventually Your feet will have to hit the ground It's not the mountain You have to climb It's knowing all the scary things you left Didn't get left behind And even if you turn around The healing starts on the way down I stretched a little Put some sugar in my coffee But then I cried Because I tripped and spilled some on me I haven't talked to anyone in weeks and weeks I've only got the smallest baby steps in me They say it's a climb To the finish line But I think it feels more like The hardest part Is coming down Knowing that eventually Your feet will have to hit the ground It's not the mountain You have to climb It's knowing all the scary things you left Didn't get left behind And even if you turn around The healing starts on the way down You gotta pick if you're fighting Or trying to flee Or to learn to let go of who you used to be Understanding it takes time to finally find peace Cause nothing else heals wounds this deep The hardest part Is coming down Knowing that eventually Your feet will have to hit the ground It's not the mountain You have to climb It's knowing all the scary things you left Didn't get left behind And even if you turn around The healing starts on the way down