Parties

I don't really hate myself Until I'm with everyone else And I still feel out of place Its half past twelve on tuesday morning Taking shots on meds despite the warning Well maybe I'm a masochist Who gets off on the emptiness I know oh I don't think I'm an optimist Just trying for a one last kiss before I go oh I go to parties when I'm lonely When I can't read the news Feel black and blue I go to parties Shouldn't be out but can't control me I go to parties I go to parties when I feel lonely Whiskey straight from a plastic cup It's after two I might throw up But I still don't want to go To an empty bed down the street With memories of you and me That I can't let go Well maybe I'm a masochist Who gets off on the emptiness I know oh I don't think I'm an optimist Just trying for a one last kiss before I go oh I go to parties when I'm lonely When I can't read the news feel black and blue I go to parties Shouldn't be out but can't control me I go to parties I go to parties when I feel lonely Ooooooooooooh oh I go to parties when I'm lonely When I can't read the news, feel black and blue, I go to parties Shouldn't be out but can't control me I go to parties I go to parties to feel lonely I go to parties I go to parties to feel