Can We Pretend?

I'm not your cousin, not your brother, nor your friend I'm not a little lover who will lose you in the end I still have all my feelings so Can we pretend? Can we just pretend that we are more than friends Even just for a little, I want it to feel real Like how it used to be before my own dreams killed Hearing your projection of me, my eyes filled Tears rolling down to my knees I'm stood still I'm not here to fix things or start a conversation I'm depressed and then I'm stressed so resort to intoxication I feel like I'm XXX cause I'm avoiding the temptation Ducking, dodging things from wilder situations Yeah, this life's about the laughs Society entertainment But I'm not here to make this life last or be amazing I just wanna die young, growing up is a dream We don't make it 21 but I won't make it 19 It's me and not you All the women in the past left me and not you Yeah it clearly wouldn't last with me, but with you It would last and that's the truth Sadly that is the truth That I'm still in love with you That I'm still in love with you That I'm still in love with you I'm not your cousin, not your brother, not your friend I'm not a little lover who can still love you in the end I still have all my feelings so I pretend That you still love me the same as back then But Even when I felt it back then, I Still felt like I was the only one trying The only one trying