muscle memory

I'm hyperventilating I hate dissociating And I can't tell what's real or fake Uncomfortable in my skin I can't tell what room I'm in And I can't deal with this headache They say ignorance is bliss It's gotta be better than this My muscle memory is taking over I stare into the mirror but I don't know her Have I always been so blind I've gotta be losing my mind Tell me to get a grip but I can't feel my hands Tell me to take deep breaths but there's a hole in my chest Why's this happening to me Why can't I trust what I see My muscle memory is taking over I stare into the mirror but I don't know her Have I always been so blind I've gotta be losing my mind Have I always been so blind I've gotta be losing my mind