Gauche Du Ciel

Left of heaven, I'm forsaken, accept the pagan Time's passed to breed resentment, takin' formation Get right to the meat of the issue, I won't waste the stakin Of sound body and sound mind, too busy breakin I know I led it on for a while, didn't see the plaguin Can't operate with flint and steel, I feel my hands shakin But that's alright, nobody looked further into the fakin The sun casts puzzles onto the pillows when I'm awakin Now enough of that poet shit We wanna hear you rap, not trap us in without knowin' shit I just wanna speak my mind, and say how I feel I got a lot of stories from my time spent in the field I've grown enough to where when I go out, don't need a shield I think I've gained the right to talk a bit 'bout how I've healed A full circle, full circle, I venn better, or do I vent better? I look back on my times as a bed wetter From this to that in apartments all through bad weather The other day my mom asked me to move to California The life of movin' here and there, shit I just can't afford ya My mental health's important I'm tired of ex-friends runnin' round playin' informant I mean it's been a minute, ship has sailed, that shit is dormant Gauche du ciel, that's how I fell, stressin' an anxious mind I'm more crooked and bent, then a light bulb went blind For at least half the time We made the grass greener, struggled up, keepin' the safety But we're in K-Town now, and the future looks amazing I can't be caught complainin, so that's why when it's rainin I lean my head up and let the droplets just hit my face My glasses still get smudged, but they're broken anyway That's the mentality I've got, can't stray away What if I told me four years ago that I'd be okay? What would I have to say? I mean, me and Laine still cool, so that's a plus I see But then again I lost Brett after what he said to me And Ryan's still around, I love him and I wish him well And Weston's back in the picture, so that's a clear tell That I'm movin' on to better things If I get some cuts and bruises, I'm fine with all the stings And if I lose some blood, I'm fine with all it brings But if my name goes up, I'll dine with all the kings And spread my wings and the things that I get over everything I'll give the ones in my life that I love anything I'm not worried about identity I'll give myself up for the cause Cuz that's what it's meant to me I'm not worried about identity I'll give myself up for the cause That's what it's meant to me I'm not worried about identity I'll give myself up for the cause That's what it's meant to me I'm not worried about identity I'll give myself up for the cause That's what it's meant to me Gauche du ciel That's how I feel for real Welcome to K-Town Where nobody in the world knows where I stay down And no matter what happens, I promise I won't drown That's how I get around Not too fond of the swimming, but shit, I make it work For when I crash the damn plane, my limbs snap and jerk I wanna share all the art, but can't overwork I wanna share all of me, but can't make it hurt Please don't make it hurt I've had a need to speak my voice ever since my birth Maybe because my own parents didn't see my worth Wouldn't be the first Think that me not being fed was actually helping my weight Couldn't really ever control myself anytime that I ate Though I may slip from time to time, I know there's always a way If I fall off the saddle, I know it'll still be okay Listen It'll still be okay There's always a way If I slip and fall I'll always be Gauche du ciel