Phantom Pains

You may not see it this way But you may thank me someday I can't stand to play the victim And you would never want to be a burden I tried to carry the weight for you, for us I felt the depths welcome my feet I saw the light narrowing There were times When the sun shone so bright Hiding the shadows behind you And there were times they engulfed me They consumed me I suffocate I can't relate to the decisions you make The same misfortunes every time I can't untangle every chain You wrap around your neck And I can't live weighted down With the misery you bring upon yourself Nights on the front step Sharing aspirations Before the waves crashed in Pulling us under Push away to save myself I reach for the light I'm letting go I'm surfacing Telling myself that I did the right thing And time only knows I hope you find the strength To pull yourself up I hope you find peace of mind