Let It Go

It's Mr.insecure on mic but the greatest paradox with all these words that I write Better than me just slanging dope and just staying fights But I need my respect and that's how I'm gonna get it aight But poppa told me there's more than that than just being guy Unless your plan is to be sleeping in them cells night That doesn't mean doesn't mean you gotta prove to everyone that you're nice But I'm guess that's something you're learning as you grow right And just like that I let it go in second Didn't know that in message was big lesson At the time i couldn't it I was in like grade 7 Till it all came back around at the end of grade 11 And I'm chilling here like damn bro There's we some things could never understand though Like how're they giving way less than they ask for Like damn that dude really is an asshole To avoid the pain I just try to sit and laugh more Damn really need to let it go Man I really need to let it go Need to let it go Need to let it go You and I need to Found out that I failed matric in my head it was just me and hooligan-ness And after that I felt like I should be on some gangster shit Told that I wait to talk instead of listen and shit Kept so much bottled up until I felt like I found the chick that made me feel like I'm okay and not so mentally sick And no more thinking that I'm always making people just cringe But nothing last forever even if it was heaven sent That's why you should let go busy sitting thinking bout it now you're here upset though Living their best life, but steady living free up in your head bro Hell no no sir driving me insane like a bad chauffeur I be tryna stay on my grind but how're you moving thinking on what you be leaving behind I say this in the morning looking in the mirror every time I give myself a little smile like man I know you're trying I take breath and close my eyes for about 30 seconds Reminisce on my past regression and all their lessons Don't feel it like but this life we're living is such a blessing But how you move and how you live is what your testament is I'm too dependent on feeling love and some acceptance And I'm relentless and feel like no one is attentive But I'm protecting instead of taking poppa message Now I'm regretting ,irrational and too aggressive I need to let it go like the sand in the wind The metaphor being the sand is all the sadness within and to escape I'm smoking Mary and sipping this gin and tonic Till I vomit and pass out Wake up in the morning hungover still ass out Can't turn back now Passion and pain let it go in what I write down Holding on to pain is a major set back and let down The day that you let go might be the day that you breakdown