In a Perfect Life

I don't know Where to begin I sold my home I lost all my friends Haven't spoken to mum She's drinking again Been on my own My back on the fence And I still go down that path we bike I see the train and it's sad sometimes It's your favourite thing And it made me smile I said one day We can go for a ride But we must've missed it I'm holding our tickets These empty wishes You're just gone How am I supposed to carry on? In a perfect life You would still be here We would put up lights Every single year We'd have strawberry ice cream And dye our hairs We would finish biking And walk on the pier In a perfect life I'd be next to you Going for a drive Singing Deja Vu We'd be going to concerts I'm performing them too In a perfect life Your eyes are still blue I wish you could see The way that I've grown This version of me That nobody knows I was stuck in the shadows Lost and alone Even went to a Chappell Searching for hope I know it's crazy hearing that from me but I was desperate just to hear you speak so I went to Lily's where we used to eat And the waitress noticed you weren't there with me She asked She asked about you I started to cry There's a tear in her eyes Like she already knew But it's cool In a perfect life You would still be here We would put up lights Every single year We'd have strawberry ice cream And dye our hairs We would finish biking And walk on the pier In a perfect life I'd be next to you Going for a drive Singing Deja Vu We'd be going to concerts I'm performing them too In a perfect life Your eyes are still blue In a perfect life It'd be me instead You'd be a perfect wife With a perfect kid With perfect eyes And perfect lips You'd have a perfect smile You're my perfect sis In a perfect life You would still be here We would put up lights Every single year We'd have strawberry ice cream And dye our hairs We would finish hiking And walk on the pier In a perfect life I'd be next to you Going for a drive Singing Deja Vu We'd be going to concerts I'm performing them too In a perfect life Your eyes are still blue