Ron de Vou

Your heart is elusive You drown me in doubt My mind is abusive Cause' I hurt myself Why is everybody leaving? Is there something I'm not seeing? I look up, but don't believe him Is there even a God? If so, then explain why my loved one's don't stay Got too many problems and no one to blame I'm fighting with my demons Swear to God I cant even I'm breathing, but I'm running out of breath And oh I miss the way love felt I miss the way I used to love myself But I'm too damn busy loving everyone else And it doesn't come cheap I'm surrounded by greed You struggle with love And perfection But I struggle with me All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou Holding your hand down the avenue Sit inside a Cafe Drinking your favourite brew Is it too much to ask? Is it too much to lose? All I ever wanted was to clean the slate Start over, be happy, so we're both okay Get a brand new canvas And fill it with paint Is it too much to ask? Are these permanent stains? You turn all my problems into a competition You change all my narratives just to fit your definition How righteous of you Guess I'll wait in the que In a line of other boys Hope you're liking the view You take our past issues And you drag them all out Bringing up every moment Make it last until now I want to be petty Want to fight one more round Wanna tell you I hate you But I keep to myself Oh I miss the way things were The way you said my name at first But now everything just fuckin' hurts And you don't wanna talk So I argue with me Your heart's like a rock And mine is the sea We're sinking All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou Holding your hand down the avenue Sit inside a Cafe Drinking your favourite brew Is it too much to ask? Is it too much to lose? All I ever wanted was to clean the slate Start over, be happy, so we're both okay Get a brand new canvas And fill it with paint Is it too much to ask? Are these permanent stains? I should stomp on your crown I should throw you away I should kill your esteem And spit on your grave I should tell you you're stupid When you're making that face Acting so innocent How you're just in my way But I call you a queen I ask you to stay I built up your ego I dug my own grave Now I'm looking stupid I still call you 'Babe' Fell for your excuses But you never changed All I ever wanted was a Ron de Vou Holding your hand down the avenue Sit inside a Cafe Drinking your favourite brew Is it too much to ask? Is it too much to lose? All I ever wanted was to clean the slate Start over, be happy, so we're both okay Get a brand new canvas And fill it with paint Is it too much to ask? Do you still see the stains?