Useless

I've been searching For that vine Connecting all the little things in life I've been looking Through every line Searching for reasons why I'm even alive And I keep looking over my shoulder I notice I'm getting older And all that I need is closure but I know that I'll never have it Maybe I'm too melodramatic Everything I touch just turns to dust I need a reason to be happy Need reason to smile I need a reason to laugh and to love I need a reason to feel Like I'm more than enough It's so stupid Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless What's the purpose Of being here? If we all die, I swear this isn't fair I get nervous I get scared I just wish that there was somebody there To tell me that this world still loves me Despite all the ones that hurt me Tell me that I'll see my thirties but Even if I lived that long I don't think I could write a song To keep me feeling like I did enough I need a reason to be happy Need reason to smile I need a reason to laugh and to love I need a reason to feel Like I still did enough It's so stupid Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless I'm not gonna lie though I've been suicidal Tryna hit the high road But I just wanna die though I wonder where the time goes Where I'd be when I'm old I just wished that time froze But I always keep my mind closed I need a reason to be happy Need reason to smile I need a reason to laugh and to love I need a reason to feel Like I'm more than enough It's so stupid Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless I need a reason to be happy Need reason to smile I need a reason to laugh and to love I need a reason to feel Like I'm more than enough It's so stupid Cause' I don't need a reason to feel useless