Not Today

It hurts here In my mind Can't see it Can't feel it So no one thinks it's real Don't recognize myself Fading away Always overwhelmed With worry and doubt Listen Pay attention I'm drowning in my emotions I can't help you understand But if you wonder why I haven't been outside If you ever question the pain behind my smile And ask if I'm alright I'll say I'm doing fine I'm sure I'll be okay Just not today It hurts here In my head While you're planning your whole life I'm dreaming of death Suppressed by my own thoughts Self sabotage Locked up in my own cage But this is where I feel safe Listen Pay attention I'm drowning in my emotions I can't help you understand But if you wonder why I haven't been outside If you ever question the pain behind my smile And ask if I'm alright I'll say I'm dong fine I'm sure I'll be okay Just not today Not today Not today I'm not okay I'm not okay I'll be okay Just not to... But if you wonder why I haven't been outside If you ever question the pain behind my smile And ask if I'm alright I'll say I'm doing fine I'm sure I'll be okay Just not today Not today