If I Die Tomorrow

Subha ke teen ya phir char mujhe patai nai hai Likhne ki koshish lekin likhne ko kuch bachai nai hai Suicidal thought ceiling pe dikhta hai latka fanda Jeene bhi chahta lekin karan kuch bhi bachai nai hai I'mma a fuckin coward aur mein khudko he bas kosta hu Firse mein sochta hu, kya mein khudpe bojh sa hu Kaisa mein banda khudko he na jaanu tabhi Kalam ko khuda mane khudko panno pe khojta hu Dur jana chahu lekin soch se dur mein kaha jau Afnui ghar ni molai aaja lagdaina afnui thau I swear to God agar maa na hoti sochme toh phir I, I would'nt be alive now Save me from my self I don't wanna have a breakdown Sabhi se naraz hu mein chhod aaya mera town Doh minute khudse baatein mein karta hu Dikhta hai mujhe mere andar ek saitan Na jane mere hathoo me kyu na ye pal hai Kalam se puchta hu kaisa mera kal hai Khudse he expectation rakhna meine chhod diya I don't even care mere sabar ka kya fal hai Baba bhi bole yaha jeena hai toh thosh ban Jali mile apne aur saache mile bahut kum Agli bar sayad aashman pe mile hum I'm sorry dad that, I haven't been a good son Doh char log sunte thee sayad wohi gum sahenge Aacha tha insaan, aacha likhta tha kahenge Duniya badi zalim aur ye kehte thye ki Nothing last forever lekin gane ye ammar rahenge Subha ke teen ya phir char mujhe patai nai hai Likhne ki koshish lekin likhne ko kuch bachai nai hai Suicidal thought ceiling pe dikhta hai latka fanda Jeene bhi chahta lekin karan kuch bhi bachai nai hai I'm a fuckin coward aur mein khudko he bas kosta hu Firse mein sochta hu, kya mein khudpe bojh sa hu Kaisa mein banda khudko he na jaanu tabhi Kalam ko khuda mane khudko panno pe khojta hu Nakaab aaeene pe dikhta mujhe chehra na Woh kehte sath rahenge par koi bhi thehra na Dard ke mahol pe bhi haske hum likhte hai Jaise me woh baap jisse rishta tera gehra na Khush lagta hai utne bure din bhi kaate nai hai Gaane ye pahuche waha jaha khud bhi jaate nai hai Woh khudko kehte OG's aur mein inko kehta Woh likhawat he kya jisme sach teri baatein nai hai Sapna tha mera bhi bada hoke jana tha bahar Maa ko dilau ghar baba ko ek lambi car Kaisa ye soch mere aaj bhi mein sochta hu If I Die Tomorrow jane kiske honge khande chaar Likhte hue gum bade aake panne faad doh Sunne wale kum mere sayad honge char doh Aaj dono hath jode binti karna chahta tumhe John bhale maree zinda rakhna kalakarr ko Zinda rakhna Kalakarr ko ... .