Confession

Confessions to my shrink Losing helped me learn to win Trying to swallow all my pride It's a bigger pill than you think Wash it down with a drink I was watching from the outside I couldn't wait to get inside But it ain't the same now I'm in Lately I've been stressed, I need to address All of this shit on my head I've been oppressed by the sense of failure And deep down it makes me depressed I still smile to the world But my mental health really is being suppressed Behind my smile is something vile And I need to dissect Get to the root of all evil To all of my people Yes, I wish you the best I got so much hate and I'm to blame But I wanna take it out on the rest So I hide it Deep down like I'm diving Trying to swim in no breath Denial's what I'm swimming in length That's why my writing's deeper in depth It's me, myself, and I, I detest Every day that I wake up I wash my face up And face up straight into the mirror I feel like screaming I hate us I waste money on trainers I must be brainless Kalem, I wish you the best Issues in my head And they come like phlegm Better get that shit off my chest Confessions to my shrink Losing helped me learn to win Trying to swallow all my pride It's a bigger pill than you think Wash it down with a drink I was watching from the outside I couldn't wait to get inside But it ain't the same now I'm in There's no doubt I'm blessed but lazy Mixed with stress and crazy With depression? maybe I got health, Disbelief in myself is what fazed me I convinced myself that I had enemies When no one around me hates me Coz really, I don't rate me A selfish, immature baby Look up what the hell I've become I'm too busy hating myself right now For me to be helping my mum But mother, I love you dearly Yours sincerely Kalem, your son And plus, my grandad died too I can see my gran trying to brave it I can see the tears run down her eyes As the lord come to take him Our merciful father, love thy martyr And give her strength till her day ends You can even take power from me Oh please Just give her strength as she ages And lead her from temptations Along with family and friends You can take me, just don't take them Confessions to my shrink Losing helped me learn to win Trying to swallow all my pride It's a bigger pill than you think Wash it down with a drink I was watching from the outside I couldn't wait to get inside But it ain't the same now I'm in