Different Shoes

I need that light in my life Too many people throwin' shade Now I write and I write To get this bullshit off my brain I never fright for my fight I guess I'm used to all the pain Now I look up to the sky Hands closed and I pray See whenever you're down, there onto bigger moves But whenever you're up they want to stick with you They all want shit from you But on the way up I got different views Live a day and a life and different people shoes My white friends queued for games, My black friends flippin' Q's I had to pick and choose But I chose none so don't get shit confused I was too broke for games and knew that I weren't flippin' food I had to make my own lane, saw construction made a different route I turn up my life around Like U-turns and roundabouts When you learn what life's about Then you learn to drown them out I tried to hide a while Escape from what my mind's around I put my pride aside Untied my life from all them others now I'm a lone ranger, lone wolf I'm endangered No stranger to hard work But I'm hopeful about my own labour See I work hard for it Pens of empty cartridges Before my writing was marvellous I worked hard just to harness it Morning until darkness hit, Pen after pen after pen after pen And then a pencil came after it Skills like the pencil Coz I sharpened them Feelings like the muscles coz I hardened them Some friends in the ground Like I'm gardenin I need that light in my life Too many people throwin' shade Now I write and I write To get this bullshit off my brain I never fright for my fight I guess I'm used to all the pain Now I look up to the sky Hands closed and I pray See whenever you're down, there onto bigger moves But whenever you're up they want to stick with you They all want shit from you But on the way up I got different views Live a day and a life and different people shoes I need that light in my life I've been through dark times The memories in my archive Like a villain they have scarred I So what d'you know about Walking on a dark night You see some hooded guys So now you half stride You walk around a corner Where you can't hide A knife comes out So now you can't fight I pushed my cousin out The circle I can hear I'm gonna murk you, This is our side Repeatedly The other one said nah Let him go Like immediately I know it's God's plan I feel like Drake he must've needed me I believe in everyone Not everyone believes in me I believe in trying to succeed And live peacefully We all should be respectful But some don't have that decency So what you know about Sitting in the park Until it's dark right My mate has started shotting Coz it's hard times What you know about Writing all these hard lines But mental health won't let you say them loud Now it's our time I need that light in my life Too many people throwin' shade Now I write and I write To get this bullshit off my brain I never fright for my fight I guess I'm used to all the pain Now I look up to the sky Hands closed and I pray See whenever you're down, there onto bigger moves But whenever you're up they want to stick with you They all want shit from you But on the way up I got different views Live a day and a life and different people shoes