Pain

This pain inside it's tearing me apart I don't know why the feelings were cut short I'm dead inside I can no longer cry I though you were mine It was all a fucking lie Knife in knife out You know what's that all about You ripped me up that's how I guess it's time to rollout Percys and Prozacs I'm drinking until I drown Lucid dreaming off that brown I wake up don't know how I'm speeding down the pch I'm just tryna die What's the point of living I ain't even wanna try Therapist says hey you need ways to cope I say yes of course my anxiety says nope My friends ask if I'm ok I'm nodding my head yes But little do they know the full extent of my depress Waking up each day wondering if I'll survive Sadly the answers yes my persistence has been high This pain inside it's tearing me apart I don't know why the feelings were cut short I'm dead inside I can no longer cry I though you were mine It was all a fucking lie cin't even know what's up or down I feel I'm on my own My anxiety been betraying me I've been suffering all alone Just another issue in the life of fucking me Can never think straight what's wrong with my brain circuitry Constantly overthinking in my head wondering yall's thoughts Never putting Kalibaby first I'm in a circle of distraught Tryna make it to the top and be the most high supreme If I make it to the top will I be happier or be the same me Now that's a damn great question to something we call life In reality we wanna be happy relieved of our strife Showing my pearly whites as a front from me to you Thinking of the past if I could've changed feeling blue This pain inside it's tearing me apart I don't know why the feelings were cut short I'm dead inside I can no longer cry I though you were mine It was all a fucking lie