Eighteen

Which one did you f*ck harder my best friend or my self esteem
 Remember when you got drunk and said you were the only one dumb enough to love me 
I don't want to live just following your script
 The actress is too young and the director is a narcissist This isn't normal, this isn't okay
 But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay
 Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
 I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen You bought me beer because you were too old to go to prom with me
I threw up in the bathroom, my friends made memories 
And yeah, you looked real cool to a girl still in high school
You don't have to chase anything that you can fool This isn't normal, this isn't okay 
But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay 
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
 I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen I see you out with younger versions of me
 While I'm trying to find who I used to be 
I'm terrified that you and I will always be chasing eighteen This isn't normal, this isn't okay
 But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay 
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me 
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was Eighteen