Lying to Myself

I'm a little out of touch with reality, it's never been that nice to me I like the pictures I paint the best You always seemed more down to Earth, I was a little hesitant at first But after that night in LA, well, you know the rest It's not hard to feel that good, when you're drunk in Hollywood  So new to me, but you understood I helped you up on that pedestal, damn you looked incredible I guess coming down's inevitable  Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head Am I making it up, am I not making sense Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself I picked out all my favorite things you said, then like a delusional architect  I built you up like a house of cards Guess I really loved the idea of you, but the real problem is neither of you Can hold me when it falls apart You liked it up on that pedestal, cause damn you looked incredible But coming down's inevitable Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head Am I making it up, am I not making sense Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself What if I trusted my intuition the way that I trusted you  Did you ever even need me the way that I wanted you Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head Am I making it up, am I not making sense Am I out of my mind, was this all in my head Am I making it up, am I not making sense Were you leading me on, now I'm too sad to tell Were you lying to me or was I lying to myself Lying to myself Lying to myself