half complete

I feel the stress, bury my head in my chest Keeping these thoughts in my head Talked to the devil I told him to pull up and sent the address I hate myself I confess bargained my life for a chance at success I know when I die these words have all but left When everyone I love has all but left At the edge of my bed and I've all but slept all but rest The more you give the more they kept I packed my bags and I headed west I put my heart in a loose leaf I only love me with a roofie They pick me apart and don't choose me and that's why it hurts when I choose me I'm depressed as f*ck and mad as hell my mothers good my fathers well He's dead to me no we don't speak I've gone through life this half complete Now half my life is half complete I've stained these words with yellow teeth I search myself for hopes and dreams but put no faith in hoping things Pan out for the best runaway or get stretched Full of anger in my chest this some cause and effect shit I could never bare a heart with affection I could never find myself in acceptance Some of ya'll look up to me but don't know me I tell you my demons don't act like I'm cozy This shadow behind me keeps growing Pour salt on da wounds that I opened